Tak tahu nak tulis apa kat tittle nie.
My grandma has this irritating and annoying trait yang sangat merimaskan dan melemaskan saya setiap kali datangnya my parent’s birthday ke, mother’s day ke or father’s day. Trait yang berupa interruption yang berupa reminder like “Kakak dah cakap kat bapak Happy Birthday?”, “Kakak dah cakap kat emak Happy Birthday?”, “Kakak dah blab bla bla…” yang sangat memboringkan dan boleh menyebabkan saya meletup. Some of you might think that those reminders tu sound okay dan tak meloyakan pun since it sounds sangat takde masalah. But people, itu hanya pembuka leteran. I repeat, LETERAN. The later words yang akan terspill out from her mouth yang naya tu. It made me feel macam anak derhaka yang confirm masuk neraka la. Aiyooo… Tak suka okay. Last time, my mother also has this kind of trait and luckily we have Facebook where you can just shout at your online status if you marah ke, gumbeera ke, sedih ke… So there was a time, not really a time la but countless of time already I shouted at FB status untuk let out what I feel so she got the message alreadylah. But sometimes, bonda saya masih jugak dengan trait lama tu… Contohnya when it comes to nak select birthday gift ke, nak ambik gambar ke (I am talking about doing some pose here), she has this one attitude yang rasa pilihan dia lah yang paling debomb while mine too plain and biasa je. But I constantly remind my mother I am not a fan of “trying so/too hard” punya style. I like it when it is simple, when less is more. Get it?
Luckily this time I didn’t encounter any ‘interruption’ from my grandma because I have warned her. Hehe. Daripada saya terus tarik muka masam dan ketat, buat dosa menjawab baik saya ambik initiative to stopkan dia kan? I bought her a cake for her birthday 4th June lepas, and she said to me “Mak takde?” My mom’s bday was on the 1st and I haven’t wished her yet, well actually I purposely buat bodoh to do some surprise. But my grandma spoiled and ruined everything especially my mood. So I replied “Suka hati orang la nak kasi siapa yang orang nak kasi.” So she stopped.
Okaylah I think I should stop talking about all these. Benda tak baik ponnnn… I know. Cuma nak conclude, I hate it when keluarga sendiri buat saya feel bad about myself, buat saya rasa I am not good enough and will never be good enough, atau buat saya rasa loser. Benda macam nie berulang dan selalu berlaku. Diorang tahu apa yang diorang buat tak mendatangkan rasa gembira, dan membuatkan atmosphere di rumah jadi tegang when it happens so why repetitively buat if dah tau benda tu tak berfaedah? Tak ke? If some of you ada thought ala Nono, it’s all about how you react actually. Tapi tell me, how can you accept those negative words if dah selalu sangat? Imagine yourself sebagai processor, if input coding yang salah, salah processor ke if the system operate salah? Salah compiler ke if coding takleh execute? Nak tak nak, input coding kena alter balik gak. Ha… You make your own thinking ye.
So, yesterday was Father’s day. I didn’t contribute much for the celebration because I am broke and broken (ecece, over pulak). LOL. I would say 2% tu adalah contribute, setakat few RMs and also tenaga pergi Secret Recipe, edit gambar and pegi print gambar, carik frame lagi. Luckily I have girlfriend yang sayang I lebih. Love you sayang :) .. Don’t worry, I am straight tak bengkok pun. I am talking about my bestfriend, Pika je.
So even though I have wished you, I would like to wish you again, Happy Father’s day, fathers (Mr. Hana & Mr. Masudi)! And tak lupa jugak buat bapak-bapak yang baca blog saya macam Enme, & Maza. Saya tak tahu siapa lagi bapak-bapak yang baca blog saya nie. But if ada bapak-bapak yang saya tak mention your name here, I would like to apologize ye. But still, happy father’s day to you!
Sebenarnya rasa tak sanggup upload gambar sendiri sebab kecewa dengan pengembangan badan yang berlaku dengan pesatnya. Huhu.
To Pika, if you read this baby, I would like to say berjuta-juta thank you to you for accompanying me meredah hari minggu to prepare all these. Thank you sebab bersusah payah datang rumah lepas kerja and curi-curi masa untuk sleepover at my house. Thank you for lending me your ears untuk dengar all my angan-angan, my impian and my dreams. And thank you for loving me… I love you so much too.
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P.s: Tiba-tiba rasa terharu and sayu pulak.
P.s.s: Thanks to alin_nicky for following Nono Fara. Photo Blog! ;)
